Disneyland

Disneyland!!!! So every year in December, my father's boss takes his workers to disneyland and california adventures, with a dinner in the exclusive club 33! I Love Disney, It really is the happiest place on earth! Especially during Christmas time!! annnnnnnd when its free! haha ;)

 This is my fourth time going with my dad i think, normally he would go with my mom or alone since i never wanted to miss school. haha but our first time all four of us went, my mom, sister, and i, and of course my pops. the second time i went alone with him, the third time both my sister and i went, and this last time, it was only me and my pops. I love going with him! he becomes a completely different person! He is so calm, and nice! haha well in normal non disney life he is nice, but moody most of the times. haha Disney changes everybody! My all time favorite ride is the peter pan one! All pure happy memories! :D

 

Club 33! yummmmmy. So this is the really exclusive club. It takes like 15 years waitlist to become a member. However i think nobody can become a member anymore. and it is like thousands and thousands of dollars to pay for a member ship, and we get to go in for free! haha my dads boss has a membership. :) the food is delicious!!!! and the deserts! such a shame i am vegan! however my first year i was able to eat them since i was only vegetarian, and they were heavenly! :))

After club 33 we head down to california adventures again, to watch the world of color show! its so amazing! i love it!!!!! <3 im always singing and reciting the disney songs and movies very loudly! <3

So that was all Goodbye from Geppetto and me. :)

Wicked broadway Musical

         On December 15, 2011, my friend Nadia and i went to go see the wicked Broadway musical, in Hollywood at the Pantages theater. I can honestly see it was one of the most amazing, breathtaking, life changing experiences of my life! I have always loved theater and musicals, but experiencing it live it a completely different story. 

Okay, so when we arrived, we were greeted by this faboulous sight. I still cant believe that i was finally able to see it! It might not have been in New York, like i dreamed it would, but it was absolutely amazing nonetheless. 

Upon entering, you see the souvenir stand. I wanted to buy everything!!! I especially wanted a hoodie and the black jacket that the man is wearing, but everything was so expensive! so i bought a mug, and a key chain, that actually ended adding up to a pretty penny, haha. 

So once we finish admiring the place, we went to go take our seats. We were siting in seats 210 and 211. They were actually really great seats!!! I had a perfect view! they were expensive seats but not terribly so, I really think they were worth it! however i want to save up more money to  buy better ones! I want to go again next august! haha

Okay so the stage looks farther and smaller in this picture than it actually was. We were the 3rd row in the second floor. Okay, so to recap all my emotions, here, since i forgot my journal, let me just start by saying, this play took my breath away. I cant really describe its effect on me. I was so moved, so inspired. When Elphaba sang defying gravity, i literally stopped breathing. It was beyond anything i have ever heard or seen. I'm not emotional in the slightest, but if i was, it would have surely moved me to tears. That is what i have always wanted to do, but never had the courage to do. Sing and act on a stage! I do not have the voice or the talent, oh but what would i give to be at least a character with minimum lines! The excitement and buzz through the audience was exhilarating. The communal experience is beyond anything else. I want to go back again and again. By the end, i couldn't contain myself, i stood up, and screamed and clapped like a maniac. when i sat back down i was stunned. i couldn't think, my head was whirling with what i had just experienced. I LOVE LOVE LOVED it!

"Its time to try defying gravity!"

Love

Lily

Wicked.

"Let all of Oz be agreed, I'm WICKED through and through...."

I'm Going to see wicked today!!!  <3

-Lily

 

 

Santa

 

 

So an old teacher of mine, posted this comment on facebook:

"I have a Christmas question. I know I'm going to be unpopular here but is Santa real? I guess the real question is why do we celebrate Christmas? If it's for Christ, cool. If it's for having time away from school and relaxing, cool. I guess one of my parenting questions is when is it ok to lie to our kids, while teaching them that lying is wrong?
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!"

 i wanted to comment on it, but i couldnt bring myself to.

So i decided on expressing my feelings on this. 

For me, growing up, Christmas, was the time of year were you not only could smell and see the joy, but the time where you could feel the magic. Having two very catholic parents, i was never unaware that the "real" celebration for Christmas was to celebrate the birth of baby Jesus. Also, my parents instilled in me, the belief that getting presents didnt mean much and all that mattered was being with your loved ones. This, from a very early age exposed me to humility, and to be non-materialistic. However, with that said Santa Claus was very much alive in our celebration and getting presents whether they be big or small was always one of my favorite part (although i never voiced my joy at how much i loved presents haha.). It was never explained what Santa clause's role was in Jesus birthday, but then again i never cared enough to asked. I know a lot of people who have had bad experiences with Santa Claus, however, Santa claus will always hold a special place in my heart. He taught me to believe in magic. Writing letters, baking him cookies, leaving warm milk, presents under the tree, all are traditions that i love and cherished. To this day, i know some may find it impossible, absurd, or even a lie, that i, 20 years of age, i still wholeheartedly believe in santa. Even though i dont put my xmas card on the tree for santa to see at night, i still write him one. As much as i believe in him, there comes a time at ones age where, believing in things like this becomes unconventional and even unacceptable. As a matter of fact i still believe in almost everything i believed in when i was a few years younger. And not in the way that some people "believe" in it just so they can feel like a "kid" again. i really truly feel in my heart that these magical, and mythical creatures exist. I dont understand when people say, "oh i feel like a little kid again." I still feel like a  kid. Ive never felt as if ive transition into anything else besides a child. believing in santa claus has never been a question of "is he real or not" what did matter was the fact that without santa i dont think i would have ever believed in all the wonders of magic.

-lily 

Homesick

I feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist.

Lily

Belle

"Now its no wonder that her name means beauty, her looks have got no parallel" 

-Beauty and the Beast.

Belle, i love thee with every beat of my heart.  She is my best friend, and so much more. She is a part of me, a part of my soul. I've been blessed enough to have her for 9 years, and hopefully for many more years to come. The hardest part of leaving is always because of her. She is the one who constantly plagues my thoughts and makes it impossible to leave without a broken heart. School is less than a week away, and living 6-7 hours away only worsens my need to be next to her even more as the months pass by.  Her years are starting to show, im no fool, i know i must accept that at her age, anything can happen. I constantly try and reason with myself, but my mind wont let me process a life without her in it. The fact that for 3 months at a time sometimes more im hundreds and hundreds of miles away from her, only makes me even dread the day the goddess decides that she must join her. I love her so much, i dont think words could ever explain my emotions towards her. This is a poor blog in expressing my affections towards her, but as i lay here, typing this, listening to her breathe and watching her chest move up and down i cant help but contemplate what bliss she has brought me, and what heartache she will bring me when i no longer will be able to sleep beside her.  Bless her little heart.

Love

A very sad but happy

Lily

Glorious Harry Potter Era

July 14, 2011 3:56pm

It has been 14 years since the glorious Harry Potter era began. Never again will i stand in line waiting hours and hours for the midnight release of both the books and the movies. However, although harry potters story has officially ended, his legacy will live on, in all of the fans hearts as well as in our culture. The impact that this franchise, this story, this idea created in the lives of so many people and its culture is very unlikely to ever happen again. The enormity of its success is something nobody could have fathom or perceived. 11 years ago, two years after the release of the first harry potter book in the US, my life ceased to be the same. As dramatic as that may sound, it is in no way far from the truth. At 8 years old, it made the magic ive always believed in real. i found a friend in harry. He was right there growing up with me as i was with him. On my eleventh birthday, i stayed up all night waiting and waiting for my letter to arrive. To be invited to attend Hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry was the only wish i would make on my birthdays leading up to that dreaded and most looked forward eleven. When my birthday passed and no letter arrived, to say that i was devastated is an understatement. However, to this day, i feel that Harry's world is real. Something of this grand and wonderful stature cannot simply have stemmed from nothing. There are forces in this world unknown to us that work in ways that cannot be explained. Hogwarts is alive in every believer. Harry's journey ends in less than nine hours. It is terrifying to contemplate, because he was our link to the magical world. Post-harry potter is upon us, and i cant bear to think how different our lives will be.

yours truly, from a very somber but excited heart
Lily

update

so this is a quick update on my life currently

1. there is a roach in my room
2. i haven't posted because i believe that my blog has been breached by a family member who will not be happy with what they found. (this is still in questioned)
3. i am having an awfully boring and unproductive summer.
4. ive gained ten thousand pounds.
5. i have yet to wash my clothes since ive been back from school.(which is about a month ago)
6. there is a roach in my room
7. two attempts on the roach's life have been unsuccessful
8. i cant sleep until the roach is killed.
9. My laptop is in the hospital so i have to use a pre-historic one that is extremely slow and has no sound.
10. i went in a fungus infested pool and was not warned until 2 hours later.
11. i miss santa cruz terribly so.

ps.-did i mention that there is a COCKROACH IN MY ROOM?!

what am i doing...


lily

Goodnight

My first day back home.

I dont know whether im glad or sad.  Los Angeles is not exactly beautiful, and as the years pass its starting to feel less and less like home. 

My head is swimming with thoughts. At least tomorrow i will finally be able to be with my true loves in this world. william, nicholas, and angel.  the boys from Aiden have changed my life, and i am both excited and terrified to see them. I cant handle too much happiness, i feel as if my heart will explode.

until then, may you sleep in a world of yours entirely, may you swim in the deepest ocean or glide over the highest clouds

goodnight

lily

#LifeRuiner

#LIFERUINER

Darren Criss you have ruined my life indefinitely. 

-Lily

Kitty Cat

I desperately want a kitty cat. This one will do just fine.

Lily

 

unicorn

yeah,

I'm going to become magical and shit.

Lily

reality

"In in that [mood], that if i were underwater i would scarcely kick to come to the top."

 -keats

I had an anxiety attack today,

i failed my midterm.

Lily

wherefore art thou?

"O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?"

 

Lily

cirque

I've always had a part of me that wanted to run away to the circus. 

I wanted to be a tight-rope walker, or an acrobat. 

It seemed like such a colorful and exciting life. 

I still sometimes wished i could go and hide in one of their vans to go along for the ride. 

I don't condone circus with animals.

In fact i rally against them.

However circuses like cirque du soleil have always seemed so beautiful to me. 

I want to pack my bags, head to France, and star in a circus, even if im the ricketier, i would like to be surrounded by odd individuals, who lead a completely different life than anybody could imagine.

Lily

Friends

I miss my friends back home!

I talk to my best friend, but i still miss her, and all my friends from Leadership. I love them, and i cant believe its been two years since i have properly hung out with them. All my friends from either elementary, middle school, or high school, change my life and shaped me into the person who i am today.I need to re-connect. I cannot allow myself to forget about the wonderful people i met before college. . I shall not be made a stranger to my own friends. 

Summer needs to get here.

Lily

perfect man

If i had to really describe my perfect man, i would describe Jack Dawson.

Till this day, I still find him absolutely perfect. He has all the characteristics i would love in a man. and not to mention that he is beautiful. Leonardo DiCaprio is absolutely amazing in this role

He just makes me melt,

he is an artist, he is nice, humble, adventurous, funny, caring, handsome, smart, and so much more.

i have many on screen "boyfriends", but Jack Dawson is my #1. he is everything, everything!

and i would love to slow dance with him

haha, what a pity, my perfect man just happens to be a fictional character.

Here's to hoping i find someone like him

Lily

joseph gordon-levitt

“there is not much difference between music and magic.” - joseph gordon-levitt

brilliant, beautiful, talented man.

 Lily

Snuggle

I want someone to snuggle with.

Lily.

Paris, France, bonjour!

Paris, France, the city of love. In one year time i shall be studying abroad there, for two months, and in a year after that, i shall be living there. Never have i felt so sure about something in my life. Ever since i was eight years old, i remember watching The Parent Trap, and knowing that Europe was the place for me. My mom and i have, for my whole life, always talked and dreamt about the day when i will finally be able to travel. She supports my every decision and keeps me focus and determined in achieving my dream. As the years get closer to when i will finally be free from my ties to the united states, i cat help but think about it every second. I want school to be over, and once it is, im never looking back. 

I am well aware that plans change, but if my plans haven't changed thus far, then i can only hope they continue to play out how they are.
i thank google for google maps and google earth. ever since they created it, ive been visiting france, and going through random streets and just imagining myself walking past them. The jitters and butterflys that course through me are so immense that i can at times hardly control myself.

I want to leave this life behind. Abandon everything and start anew. I want to make my own life for myself. My parents did it when they migrated to the united states, when they were but 11 years of age. However my sister claims that they came out of necessity, and i will only do it out of impulse. But its not like that at all. This is a necessity for me. I dont feel complete here. I feel a strong sense of detachment as if i dont belong here. I love european literature, royalty, customs, language, culture. There is so much history in Europe. so much art, and so many places where i can marvel at something. I am content to live a beautiful penniless existence there. I will be content as long as im there.

Lily

cheek to cheek

A classic slow dance.Old fashioned, and so romantic. I wish that when im old and grey, i could still go out and slow dance with my husband to Frank Sinatra, Billie holiday, Louie Armstrong, and many other great jazz singers. There is something so beautiful about seeing a couple so in love dancing cheek to cheek. My heart flutters just thinking about it. No longer will i slow dance with my hands outstretch imagining someone there. I will have somebody to hold close to me and make me feel complete. 

http://youtu.be/FgoOOnyFAL8

This scene is just so.... perfect.

Lily

Just Make Believe it

"Magic has to be believed. It's the only way it's real. "

I just finished watching the movie A Little Princess, I love that movie so much. It reinforces my belief in the power of magic and imagination. When i saw this movie for the first time, many years ago, it opened my eyes to a very important concept. Magic is everywhere, if you believe in it, then it must be real. As i got older i related this to religion. I had always wonder why it could be that there are so many religions and faiths. I also wondered if any of them were real, and if so, which one? A Little Princess actually led me to my conclusion with that line above. All the religions are real, at least to the people who believe in them. Nobody is wrong by believing in something. The fact that they can feel a greater power, that people can talk to and feel safe,

I think it makes it that much more magical.

 If you believe in something whether it be in god or in unicorns then there must be some truth in it. I truly and honestly believe in mermaids, unicorns, dragons, fairies, vampires, werewolves, Pegasus etc. I believe in them with my entire being. And i know that they are real, because they are real in my heart. Magic is a concept, a feeling, a beauty, that i hold very dear to me. It is in every fiber of my being, it is in my every thought. I feel i wouldn't be able to live without my belief in magic. It has been this way my whole life. It wasn't taught to me. My parents never had time for fairytales. If i ever come to have children i will teach them the beauty and wonder in everything. I will let their imaginations run free without any restrictions. For magic is in us, and around us, all one has to do is believe.

Lily

Tea.

There is no better way than to end a day with a nice cup of tea, snuggled up in a blanket, enjoying your favorite book. I cant wait for summer for a repeat of days such as this. I will forever be complete if i have tea, plants, book, and a pet. With these things i am set for life. If only my frequent sneezing would cease! I am not getting sick, i am not getting sick, i am not getting sick, i am not getting..........

Lily

4/20 Spectator

So yesterday was 4/20. In this campus 4/20 is sort of a big deal. Hundreds and hundreds of students meet at a meadow to count down to 4:20pm and smoke weed. 

Now ive never smoked weed, nor do i think i ever will. But i wanted to see for myself what the big hype was about. It was pretty much what i expected, nothing interesting happened. I didn't partake in the activities, i was only a spectator taking pictures. However what did take my breath away was how beautiful the meadow was. Ive only ever been in that neck of the woods once, this being my second time and the weather being wet, the beautiful landscape took me by surprise. Santa Cruz, is full of beauty, but every day, it never fails to amaze me with just how beautiful it is. 

My friend and i have been planning a photo shoot, and i cant wait. We want to go to the woods, light house, boardwalk, and many more. Now, im still very apprehensive to pose in front of people, but i just want to get out there and shoot. :)

I'm not sure i enjoy writing this type of blog. A recounting of the days events, but i feel i might do them on occasional days when something out of the ordinary happens, or when i had an exciting time. Like today where i went to witness what all the fuss was about, and then headed off to santa cruz diner for a tofu-rice bowl, and then heading to saturn's diner to have a vegan milkshake for dessert. Any ways i hope your day was enjoyable. Have a wonderful night/morning! 

Lily

human+human=love

LOVE IS LOVE. In my mind, i don't believe that the fight to legalize gay marriage should even be a problem right now. I thought this century was past all the hate and prejudice. If i ever have children i wont even have to explain that it is a different type of love, my children will see that it is as normal as heterosexual love that needs no explanation. Love is beautiful, it knows no boundaries so don't be afraid to love whomever you may regardless of their gender, religion, or race.

Lily

I'll be seeing you....

 

 

I've always wondered  how it feels to be in love. But i've realized that i actually do know! Im in love right now! Not with anyone special, but just with the idea that someone out there is waiting for me! Im a hopeless romantic and every time the light goes out and the bright moon rises, i feel this aching and warmth in my heart because i know that someone somewhere can be looking up at the same time and gazing at the moon, thinking about me. Its such a powerful feeling! The connection my heart feels when im looking up at that beautiful round white circle, so full of promise and life. Ive never been in love, and yet i fall in love too easily! Its frighting and yet exhilarating!So i'll continue sitting here, in my little corner, gazing and waiting for you, whoever you are, and soon i'll be seeing you...

Lily

Waking dreams

My mind is full of a forgotten life, wishful thinking, and my waking dreams. Nothing is ever real only imagined. I have no real  perception of what is a vision or a what is a waking dream. Should i ever choose to wake from my ever waking slumber, i shall still only see an obscured truth and an altered reality. However my imagination will continue to see the beauty in both. John Keats said "What the imagination seizes as beauty must be truth." So i shall in turn not dwell in whether it is in reality or my  imagination in which i am living in. If in the point and time i shall see a speck of beauty and feel a whisper of  happiness, then it shall be the reality i shall forever wish to be in.

Lily Grey